Sunday, January 15, 2017
Friday, January 6, 2017
Well my body has slowly been declining all week. (Severe fatigue.) it got so bad I ended up seeing my doctor today. I knew it wasn't the flu or a virus because nothing symptomatically stood out. Just major fatigue. Hair loss. Freezing cold. Insomnia for the last week but sleeping 12hours a day when I would sleep... But waking up feeling like I never slept at all. I've been eating good and doing well but my body is not absorbing protein in a regular form. My formula was "pre digested" so already broke down. So, I get to have some formula again. (But it should be temporary) it's kind of like training wheels my body has to relearn how to absorb and digest some of these crucial nutrients. It has not had to, when the body doesn't do things for a long while, It needs to be retaught. Hopefully overtime the Normal proteins in foods and over the counter nutritional drinks will work. (That's the plan) but this specific protein is already broke down, that is in my formula. Kinda hard to hear, kinda feels like going backwards... But it's not. I just jumped a little too fast for my body to adapt. It doesn't mean tube removal is out of the picture I can drink this formula. Yuck but it can be done if needed. Plus my chest X-Ray is clear from when I had phnemonia in October. (When I was in ten hundred ERs being told how nothing was wrong. But I had phnemonia from aspirating during sugery for my feeding tube) I never received the news of phnemonia until a month after... When my kidney Doctor accidently got the medical records faced to her. I am feeling blessed and relief. I have full faith in my Heavenly Father. Bright things ahead does not mean bumps won't be in the road. GAstroparesis is always going to be mean and unfair. My heart hurts today. Too many are loosing the battle that's my battle too. "Don't you give up. Don't you quit. You keep waking. You keep trying. There is help and happiness ahead. It will be alright in the end. Trust God and believe in good things to come.-Jeffery R. Holland. I am playing "yeah but" ... "Yeah but my week wasn't all that bad look at these silly selfies despite the chronic fatigue..."