This weekend I had a heavy heart yet, Jesus let it be filled with warmth and good and love.... the new diagnosis is wearing off from yay to urgh... The realizations of a new disease living and coping. Can't seem to get my salt diet right or my water right... medications/new life style is adding up... ONE just ONE of my new medications is roughly $1,000.00 A MONTH! I keep reminding myself how I need to stop and be grateful for the diet, the treatments, the help, the hope and I know that is what My Heavenly father wants me to do so. Also, We had a scare this past weekend with a precious loved one being very ill, scary ill would be the definition...such a sweet little baby that was very sick...So as my heart hurt for her and her family...and my mind worried... I needed to do something to help me feel better. I prayed the whole day and I am happy to announce she is doing better not necessarily great but better. God has answered our prayers! I have taken my courage and I spent all day Saturday in my scriptures just soaking up all those "sticky notes" and highlighted parts that have lifted my heart so much in good times and bad. I have been really wanting to put all of those little words of god into a sort of scrapbook so I could just pull out my favorite versus and fill my heart up... So I wrote, and I wrote, and I wrote. lol I still have a ways to go and am starting to wonder if this book will be having a volume 2 or 3 haha... but just tonight it served its purpose I felt down a little and it reminded me of the important things and made my bad feelings lessen. I already have so much love for this little glued together simple book of faith (not that this book makes my faith, I do that but it is a wonderful thing) Being sick is a trial and trials are tough but I can honestly say if I were asked today if I could have my sickness taken from me all these years and go back and live a "normal" life, I would say no... I have gained such beautiful blessings through my hard times and I have learned very much which makes this tough journey worth every enduring second. I know with my faith and my Redeemer I can endure all hardships. |
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| Started out with my favorite scripture quote D&C 84:88 I will be on your right hand and on your left, and my spirit shall be in your hearts and mine angels round about you to bear you up. |
Meg Johnson's link:megjohnsonspeaks.com
Another thing I am doing thanks to Meg Johnson I decided when I feel like I can't do it anymore or when I seem focused on the negatives I will simply start writing all the things "I can" and I have a notebook just for it and honestly it works great... gets me feeling grounded again. after a few minutes of it I fell asleep last night and in a much better happier grateful mood! So Thanks to her awesome inspiration <3 I am truly thankful for every single thing that I do have, & I may not have everything (but no one does) and material things are just things they all kinda make us happy for a minute and then in time that happiness wears off... but with family, health, faith, & friends those important things never loose their value now do they?? I feel humbled right now... a little nervous ...either way god will get me through it. <3
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