Wednesday, July 26, 2017
If anything this year I have learned that I am in fact tough. I have come so far and I am so blessed! And I am continuing to seek new treatment options. We think my Sjögren's Syndrome is a new culprit. (We let it get the upper hand when we stopped immuno suppressant therapy last year. Now it's showing back up it seems.) I'm ready to fight some more. I'll keep you posted.
Wednesday, July 19, 2017
Tonight at church during game night that I am not too talented at 😉 anyone who knows me.... will know, I danced but don't expect me to do other sports for I lack the skill set needed. Between that and my health I chose to sit it out. Meanwhile someone needed instructions to the restroom. I told them "I will show you." So we go and I showed them. (I wasn't going to be a bathroom stalker. So of course, I waited down the hallway.) Meanwhile I found myself in the exact spot standing in front of a beautiful picture of Christ. It was the picture of Christ Healing the Woman that touched him. Who had been sick for 12 years. She was a younge adult female. Like me. I teared up a bit knowing that My Heavenly Father was indeed speaking to me. It was no coincidence. I do have faith and I know I can't be healed all at once. He has told me that's not part of my plan. It will take time and effort. It's bound to be a bit bumpy. But I know that message so clearly. And I know God is healing me from the inside out. I know Jesus Christ is My Savior and Redmeemer. I know He hears me. He always answers in those still, yet subtle ways. He knows my heart. He knows my pains and sorrows. He knows my losses. He knows my gains. He knows me better then me! He is showing me that I am waking down My right path. Looking at that picture I felt me walking down a trail alone. Then him walking up to me and grabbing me around the shoulders. Then leading me side by side we both will walk together down the path. And We are. He is My Savior and I love him -Chelle https://www.lds.org/media-library/video/2011-10-031-jesus-heals-a-woman-of-faith?lang=eng
Monday, July 17, 2017
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Thursday, June 29, 2017
I also took a simple luxury and bought sunglasses and some makeup. I made myself use up some of my 'ten year supply' of makeup and I haven't bought any makeup minus, foundation and mascara since last fall! (Yes I am proud of myself... That's hard to do for a Makeup Geek.) I am a proud makeup hoarder (as You probably already knew.) However, it was time to clean out the drawers of makeup and use some of it. (Mostly so I could make room for more right 😉😉) Maybe I'll find a new look since I've been on the same three smokey eyes for a year now. A little inspiration. I mean I used to have a new look every week... Haha. I have reserved my makeup skills due to tremors in my hands and weaknesses. What was therapeutic became frusterating. In what felt like overnight. Unsteady hands do make makeup applying harder. But as I have with everything else in life... I won't let disease take that away from Me... I won't let some slight wobbles of eyeliner get in the way of life! (Isn't that what q-tips And "fixing it"is for 😉) I simply just enjoyed My day today and I felt like Chelle again 🙌 (not the old Me... As in before sick... I don't need to be her. Just the regular Me I have become.) Today however, not some incredibly tired aching zombie person I've been for a week. I also woke up at 9am this morning!! That's a victory to my broken sleep schedule! Overall, I had a great day. I wore sunglasses in my house 😂 I loved on My doggie... I was a goofball. I was happy.
Wednesday, June 28, 2017
I'm simply physically tired. The heat is just too exhausting. I mean SO tired I let myself take a nap yeaterday. (You all know I don't let myself nap due to insomnia.) I have seen my pelvis specialist and Endometriosis is finally moving in the right direction. (Took a u-turn by accident post surgery last year.) after altering treatments we are in high hopes we finally are moving forwards though I have a long ways to go. My doctor is amazing and is working hard with Me. Endometriosis is no reason to live in pain. And that's the type of Doctor you should have! Also She doesn't think o have a hernia. My belly is now weakened from too much cutting and that's my pain and weird belly button soreness. (I've had 4 surgeries through that area.) I also had my nerve conduction study on My hand/arm. So, we will see what that brings. If no info we will keep searching. There are reasons. (It could be elhers danlos syndrome. With inflammation I am feeling, I wonder if it's autoimmunity striking up.) I have had a ton of inflammation and pain all over so again, I know something is going on and I just need rheumatology to figure it out. I do have autoimmunity. I have multiple autoimmune diseases... The biggest hang up is... I have been diagnosed with Sjogren's and undiagnosed. My last Rheumatologist left it at he couldn't say "no I don't have it" nor "yes I do"... Come back in a year. So I am going to ask my kidney doctor to help me as she sent me before to an amazing one who was known for dealing with complexity bit the move happened. I need to know definetly because they have just released to all POTS patients that we should if suspiciously are undetermined diagnosis of Sjögren's syndrome we must determine if I have Sjögren's syndrome (I can start IVIG treatments and it should be successful in treating sjogrens and my Dysautonomia.) they also really are starting to find information pointing that Dysautonomia is an autoimmune disease. (Which for me makes sense.) I also am still deconditioned. So I will be in the nearer future picking that apart and entering even more complex physical therapy (I don't think it ever ends, physical therapy.) I am sure this post seems like a downer in comparison to the others. I am still doing so well. I am SO very blessed. I mean I am eating folks! Those mountains I have climbed this year... They were still tackled. I did go to the top... but now it's time to keep moving forwards and keep climbing the rest of those mountains left. Because I do still have a ton of conditions that are contradicting each other. I am still medically fragile and I am physically weak even with my great progresses. So we will start tweaking care again. I just have to get through July and August (mostly July with the heat intolerance.) Due to heat intolerance physical therapy out of town has been paused. (Since it's so severely hot where I attend my treatments.) We all feel it's necessary to avoid the heat. I have to take care of my whole body as a packaged deal. I can not regulate my temperature so heat is horrific to my condition overall. So we will break and restart probably very hard in the fall. That's my update. From the few days of medical evals. After all, "mighty change is mighty hard"- Neal A. Maxwell. Though I am so fatigued and hurting. After a trip home I still got my cardio in because I know how important it is for my body.