Tuesday, November 29, 2016

Tender Mercies on a Page

Frustrating treatment battles. But In the end I hung up the phone. I closed my planner and it oddly did not close. This is the page that was opened. (I have never seen this page until today.) thankful for those tender mercies! Love this quote! Keep going with faith-Chelle 

Sunday, November 20, 2016

Miles & updates

"I'm gonna walk 100 miles, I'm gonna whistle all the while if that's what it takes to make me smile. I'm gonna walk 100 miles. I'm gonna run right up this hill summer skies or winter chills. If I gotta take a break I will. But I'm gonna run right up this hill. I wanna hold the whole wide world right here in my open hands. Maybe I'm just a little girl. A little girl wth great big plans!" -Mindy Gledhill (I have a goal of 100 miles in 100 days. I run most of them but I get them in daily! It's POTS treatment protocol to do cardio) Today was a chronic day. The weather makes me tired and achy. I did not want to do my mile. (Even walking one just was not my cup of tea today.) when I woke up this morning, I woke up a bit early. So I took to Facebook to find out yet another Gastroparesis warrior had been taken today. It always hurts to loose      another fighter. It makes me reflect on my life. Though, I am so thoroughly blessed and have had major life changing healing... It makes me realize even more how many really do not get this chance. They loose the battle. My battle. So though I felt tired I did my mile because I am ABLE to! Today, I am able to eat by mouth and workout. I was able to take the sacrament and attend church. Tonight, I did my mile for all of those who can't. This one is for you guys!! Fly High 💚 I am SO very blessed and My life is full of love and cheerleaders. Thanks to all my cheer leaders because it's so touching to see how loved I truly am. Thank you all and lots of love always- Chelle        
   (Neurologist is pleased with my improvements and we will continue down the path we are on. We will hope, pray, & hold faith as always. I am better and I know it's God. My doctors are a little baffled (in a good way) but it's God and I know it. So I will enter this new avenue and see what's in store for myself next.) 

Wednesday, November 9, 2016

Condolences, a thought, & a prayer

So many emotions in one little world... I haven't said anything. But I feel compelled to. Yesterday (Election Day), one of our amazing, brave, & sweethearted officers was shot in the line of duty. I did not have the honor of knowing from the only things I hear... One spectacular person. A true big heart. Thank You for protecting Me officer Reed! 💙  So I ask that you keep his sweet family in your prayers & of course our SLPD. (as well as all effected) It's heartbreaking to me. All this election stuff matters, it does. But in my hometown what mattered yesterday was what happened. Another innocent life lost. Another police life lost. Our protectors. And a long 24 hours on edge for a community. The person of guilt had to be put down. There was no choice. They tried. Thank you to our protectors. Pray for the family of the killer too. Because I am sure they are struggling too! But I am proud of my little town we put aside all our differences yesterday and today. We stopped to think of our own families. We all focused on what was really mattering. In Show Low AZ you won't find us arguing, or crying over the president. You will find us lifting one another up. Like Americans. I am proud of our community. I am proud of our police officers. Thank you for all that you do! Please keep this family in your prayers during the next while. Hug your kids, your husbands, wifes, parents, Ect. Hug them extra hard! Sending my condolences and Love, -Chelle
 (I've posted before and I will post again. Say Love. Be kind to one another. Don't hold hate in your heart. If we worked as hard at loving and being kind to one another the world would be a different story. Be the light in this world You want to be. And I am not just talking to you guys I am also talking to myself!) -Chelle 

Sunday, November 6, 2016

Oh So Blessed. Oh So!

I am SO blessed. I have been having some seriously fun amazing times! (This is my post shooting "look"... (I had so much fun with my Brother and Sister shooting today after church.) another moment of gratitude hits my full heart!
I know God holds all credit of these amazing milestones. I have been for a full two weeks living life AGAIN! Today in church during sacrament it hit me... Just two months ago I was on DAILY Iv fluids, because I could not tolerate jejunal feeds through my feeding tube. I worked my way back to all fluids and formula through my J tube. I keep pushing (as always... I have spent many many hours heaving my guts out because I was stubborn and ate with Gastroparesis. In a state where I literally couldn't have a sip of water.) I now went 2 whole days! TWO DAYS!! Eating by mouth!! (Minus fluids) wow! I am working on finding how I can have a well rounded diet with GP and its flare ups! I am working out daily. (A proven POTS improver... But my body simply couldn't.) I lost my nutrition. I was stuck in bed. Mostly because doctors did not know what was wrong... Neuros won't talk about remission to me. But my soul could not and would not stop. I couldn't give in... Even when I had no choice. But my neuro was SO pleased and jumping up and down with me just three short months ago. I am excited to see him in two weeks. And TODAY I was sitting in Church with a full heart of grate of all the things I have completed in a short time! True milestones. I am excited to keep trying. I am excited for the opportunity to LIVE My life. God stripped me down to nothing. He gave me a pile of No. But I am upon my mountain top... Humbled. Happy. Wiser. And Oh so blessed! I am still Michelle. However... A BETTER ME! One thing is certain God is telling me to go for it! I believe I have new callings & new directions in my life ahead of me. I am not cured. I have Dysautonomia. Bad days will surely come. Dysautonomia is still a mystery to the world. But we are managing better and learning what triggers me as a whole. I am having time to gain strength. Neuro bellies can reverse. But life is clicking for me  again. Keep going. Keep fighting your fights... Your battles... Your trials! Because Heavenly Father is there. He is molding You into a You that You did not know could exist. Pray, listen to that still small voice, and let him take care of the rest. He loves you more than anything!! Now I'm going to go spread my wings and fly! Never give up Lovies. I love all of You. -Chelle