Thursday, September 17, 2015

Times Get Tough


I have been pretty ill. My feeding tube, the j one... was coiled inside my stomach and my feeds were backing up into the stomach. Leaving me very ill and it got to where I was getting no nutrition. I was hospitalized this past weekend for my gastroparesis flare (to try managing the beast) I also had an endoscopy to check my tummy out and fix the tube. I will have another x Ray in a few days. If any signs of movement, I will be getting a new tube. My blood sugar dangerous dropped the first morning I was in the hospital. (I was so blessed to be there in good care, with an on top of it all nurse... so we caught the scary low blood sugar. I can't imagine what could have happened if I was at home) It is clear to me how our life's at times seem well unsatisfactory. Like those "hello God can you hear me?". He can. He picks up the pieces along each broken road.I am still recovering at home. My feeds are pretty low and it's going to take time to get back on my feet. I can honestly say I know what it feels like to starve. Something I never thought could happen to someone like me. I have cried many tears over it this past year. It's not for the faint of heart. The hard part is all the foods right in front of my fingertips. So I know all the different ways we see to donate food. Put a can of food here, donate food there ... especially around the holidays. But please do. Somebody,somewhere really is hungry and needs that food. If you are that somebody somewhere, I am praying for you! I know I will be doing my part from now on. I have been through so much this past month and I can say quitting is mostly what I have wanted to do...But I am not done writing my story yet. It's turning fall here, my favorite time of year! Yours truly-Chelle.